"THE FIRST FLIGHT"

"A new life....A new world.....A new beginning...A new end...."

CANADA

The feeling when you are taking the first flight of your life....and when the flight is gonna take you to the whole other side of the world...how do you feel...????

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ITS SCARY....ITS BEAUTIFUL.....ITS BREATH TAKING......ITS A WHOLE LOT OF FEELINGS THAT YOU CAN IMAGINE EXISTS.....yeah i experienced it all.....it was my first flight ever....i was nervous...dint know how things worked out on an airport...dint know how the good byes would be....dint know where i was going....a country i never imagined i would land up in....i always dreamed  about going to Europe, USA,Australia etc....but destiny wanted me to go to Canada....!!!

So here i was....my bags packed....in the car....mom n dad besides me....brother sitting in the front....i was all silent....they were all silent....no one knew how to react....i was going far....to a place we never imagined i would go....but  NOW i was about to catch the flight in next 3 hours....we reached the airport.....we dint know how things moved around on an airport...how exactly customs, security check, immigration check etc worked....so asa we got to the airport....i put my luggage on the trolley...my brother started teaching me how to move around with the trolley....we kept moving.....there i saw TERMINAL 2....my heart skipped a beat....my feet all confused whether to take a step ahead or to step back....yes i was nervous...!!!

The moment we reached the gate of Terminal 2....there was silence all again....my mom had tears in her eyes...i dint wanted to cry....but i did as well....there was a whole big speech that i had prepared for my parents but i ended up choking...couldn't say a word except for the goodbye....i kissed my mom...i hugged my dad and brother....i felt warm and protected....i was gonna loose those arms soon....dint feel like leaving....but i had to.... i turned around with my teary eyes...the security guy on the gate was feeling sad for me...he tried to console me and said that everything was gonna be fine....i wanted to believe him....and may be i did coz that was when i gathered the courage to enter the airport...!!

I went inside and asked few people what exactly was i supposed to do...they said get the boarding pass....the window was going to open in the next 1 hour....what was i supposed to do...i couldn't go back....i searched for the visitors glass...my parents were gonna be there till i left...but then it took me quite a while to figure out where it was...so i just decided to stand i  the Que for the boarding pass....!!

I started observing what people in the line were doing...coz i dint wanted to miss out on any of the processes....NEXT....i heard from the desk....whats your full name miss...i answered and the round began....they put my luggage in some sort of conveyor belt and it went away...i was scared...thinking where did my luggage go....he said i would get it in Canada....i had no option but to trust him...so i did...!!

Then i ran towards the visitors glass to see my parents....it was sound proof...i called them and we talked....how is it going my dad asked....i said i was fine....coz i dint wanted him to feel my nervousness...i bid them the final goodbye and moved towards the immigration check....my mom said we will b waiting here...till u catch your flight...if anything happens just come down...i was a bit relieved....!!

Immigration's makes you feel like a criminal....the guy was good but he interrogated me....i dint like it but managed to keep a smile on my face through out...i dint wanted him to feel if there was something wrong with me....finally after a round of questions the guy agreed to believe that i was no criminal n tap tap he stamped...wooshh...sucha a relief...!!

next step was to go towards the security check...i had to remove all the metal, wallet and etc from my bags...the lady was more than happy to check me put and woahh it made me feel creepy...though i went ahead collected my items and then had to go downstairs to catch my flight....!!

Asa i reached the ground floor....i saw a whole different world....felt like a fairyland.....so much stuff i could buy....for a moment i forgot everything....i started to explore....it was a Girls Dream Come True land....i saw people from different races....hot guys and girls....the place looked so exciting....but yet again what i ended up buying was a COKE...A DIET COKE....man i never drink diet coke....but i guess it was coz of all the mixed feelings that i had....i ended up having a diet coke....!!

I started calling all my friends....i wanted to say so much to them....i wanted to say il miss them...that i love them...and suddenly BINGO...you get the WiFi on the airport....TANGO and Viber were my best friends for the next 2 hours after that.....while talking to my friends i showed them all the hot guys and girls and we all did the bird watching together...yeah it was fun...!!

The clock kept ticking and i realized it was the time to board the  FIRST FLIGHT of my life....again all those mixed feelings came rushing down to my heart....my heart forgot how it worked...coz it was not beating properly....i thought i would look for an exit gate and me be go back....but my feet kept moving towards the boarding gate....i gave my tickets to the security and he led me to a bus...i was standing there with bunch of other people...my hands went cold...my senses got numb...all i could hear and feel was my heart beat...

After like 10 minutes , some security guy comes looking for me in the bus...i wondered that what have i done now...dammit this is my first flight...please don't take me to jail...lol....but then he said one of my luggage wasn't tagged so he just wanted to confirm few things with me....i responded quickly and went back to the pick up bus....wheels started turning and we headed towards the plane.....i always thought airplanes were MAGNIFICENTLY GIANT...but no...they are just too big...nothing like dinosaurs or something..haha....!!

I finally enter the plane...my first flight....the attendents were very warm....i felt like home....they guided me towards my seat and i followed. sitting to the left of  me was a giant black guy and to the right another indian boy....i felt uncomfortable...i asked for a change of seats to one of the attendants and he was kind enough to do that for me....slowly once everybody settled down....the pilot made the announcement....i started to listen to each and every word that he said....coz i thought i was gonna die and he was the only one who could save me...he told me to put on my seat belt and like a sincere kid i agreed to do that.....

"We are about to take off...kindly put on your seat belts"...."vimaan udaan bharney ki taiyaari me he.....kripya apni suraksha peti band lijiye" the tiny wheels of the plane started moving...i closed my eyes....told myself....now get ready...to face a whole different world....get ready to give a fight....flash back off all the good and bad times came in my head...!!!

Flight took off and i open my eyes to see the city rest below me....i was in clouds...and all i said was BRING IT ON....!!!!


"Aankhon me sapne liye...Ghar se hum chal to diye....Jane ye raahe ab le jaaengi kahaan"

“GUYS”….aren’t they sweet…!!!

Okay…so all those heart broken young ladies who would have said “BULLSHIT” as soon as they read the heading of my article….take a break…and just like me…give it a thought…

You all must be wondering who would waste time and write an article on this topic…well I would…because I believe that it was needed to be done…as many of my young girl friends have lost faith in LOVE n BOYS…so now tell me…isn’t it a reason enough…*WINKS*

Tired and exhausted, when I entered my room, I saw my friend crying on her pillow…and it was the old same story…her so called DOUCHE BAG boyfriend dumped her….a week or so passed by and she dint get over it…and all this was taking a toll on me…it was really sad to see her in that condition…that’s when this crazy thought struck me…ARE BOYS REALLY THAT BAD…???

Many girls would agree and ALL THE BOYS WONT…..lol situation….and it was my time to decide as to whose side should i support…and obviously I chose the latter…no offense girls…I owe you an explanation and that’s exactly why I am writing this article...

Most of my young guys n gals have experienced the so called LOVE in their lives atleast once…n as far as I am concerned…”BEEN THERE DONE THAT”….the feeling of NEW LOVE is beautiful n divine…isn’t it…pouring your heart out to someone special…all the late night chit chats…d feeling of possessiveness…all the romantic/crazy dates…those tears of joy n sorrow….everything just makes it perfect…you are happy…your guy/girl is happy…and it feels like you have found everything that you always wanted…but but but….waitttt……BREAK UP….yes that is when you realize that everything you did was worthless and you cry your eyes out till you exhaust and go to sleep….!!!

We stop thinking about all the good times that we spent together and to make things worse, our mind starts supporting all the worse case scenarios…we see evil in each and every next guy who throws a smile towards us…I am sure that everyone who has suffered a break up in their life would have used this line once in their life- “I will never fall in love again, it sucks..”…and those who haven’t…wait for it…

My question to all these people is…are u sure LOVE (guys) really sucks…???...think twice before you answer…because if your answer is YES then you need a reminder…you are just being biased because HE broke your heart…but tell me something…have you forgot what all HE DID for you..???...

Yes he was there when you needed a shoulder to CRY ON n talk about all the bad things that this world has bestowed upon you…remember that guy who used to carry all your shopping bags when you were busy surfing every single brand in the mall…yes I agree he checked out the lingerie showrooms while passing by it…but dint you check out that cute guy who caught your attention…and yes how can we forget that surprise romantic date that he took you to just to see a smile on your face…he was not interested in what your bitch girl friend did to you but still he listened to everything you got to say about her quietly…and at times, even gave suggestions as to how to tackle her….recall that HUG he gave you…his arms felt like the safest place on earth…and to be honest…it is the most safest place…when you know you are with your Mr.RIGHT…you will feel it…and yes girl he was their to cheer you up when you were sick and hold your hands to let you know that you will be fine soon….look at that old ROSE that you kept in your diary…who gave it to you…??? Remember how you felt when he did that for you..?? ( I know why you have this smile on your face right now)….and wait…that fight..when some random guy tried to harass you….yes your guy was there to protect you….n fine I agree that he ignored you for his FIFA n DOTA video games because he thought it was his ONLY battle ground to prove himself, but dint you ignore him for your favorite TV shows, shopping, parlor appointments, girls night/day out, etc..??..

I need not point out every single thing that your GUY did for you…because I just needed to remind you that he did some good things for you and gave you memories that you will cherish through out your life….things dint work out between you two and the blame is on him- “guys are EVIL”…if they were, you wouldn’t have experienced all those beautiful memories….they just get lost in their own space at times and end up hurting you in the ways they dint mean to…you will ask me…what about the guys who cheated on you with some other girl…but we too know the reality…we are not those angels from heaven..pure…because he cheated on you with some other girl that means that some other BITCH was involved too…but nobody would blame her…cause she has the power of TEARS and advantage of being a girl…and your guy…he will learn sooner or later that being a PLAYBOY is out of fashion…girls now a days respect those guys who stand up for their LADY….and if you are with someone who doesn’t gives a damn about what you did in your past or what you are doing in your present…- then here’s an ALERT for you…she too is just using you as a tool for her pleasure…so don’t get all happy about the hot chick who smiled back at you…she will be gone before you know it…!!!

So i would suggest, to all my girl friends out there, respect the man in your life and don’t try to find reasons to blame him for what he did and what he dint for you…try to find a common ground where both of you have your own space…guys are not that BAD afterall…they just need to be reminded what they actually are…telling them they are pathetic will just worsen the situation…

And yes guys…I took your side..wrote a whole article on you…but that doesn’t mean you keep smiling like morons….get up and take your lady to that beautiful date that she deserves…afterall she is the QUEEN of your only EMPIRE….:)

Don’t Hesitate…or REGRET…!!!

I was chatting with one of my friends, and he asked me- “what kinda guy you want in your life..??”…I smiled at the question. It wasn’t something new that someone had asked me….i came across this question a lot of time in my life…I answered the question too…but never sincerely….coz I myself dint know what kinda guy I wanted…above all I thought how would it even matter, I’m never gonna find such a guy…!!!

but what if I could..???

it was one crazy dream which woke me up at 4 in the morning….i sat on my bed looking outside the window…the view was beautiful, it was full moon…I started listening to my favorite track , as I couldn’t get back my sleep….and I don’t know how but this question popped up in my head…it kept on repeating itself….” Karishma, what kinda guy you want…??..” I dint wanted to answer that question coz no matter how much I tried I never found the correct answer…or may be coz I thought it wasn’t even important to find an answer to this question…it was lame I thought…!!!

But the night was different today…I argued myself…what if it was important…??...

I have been in love…passionately…the memories are bitter-sweet…I never wanted to let it go…but things dint work out the way I wanted them to…I was hurt, broke and depressed…I just couldn’t understand what happened…one moment we were happy and madly in love…and with a blink of an eye it was all over…after that, it never realy mattered what kinda guy I wanted…I was too afraid to fall in love again….or may be coz I was a coward….it takes a lot of courage to fall in love…opening up your heart to someone…giving them all you have…knowing that you can /will get hurt…history has it that all the great love stories were broken…( romeo-juliet, heer-ranjha, laila-majnu ) they could never be together…

But then I asked myself…for how long am I prepared to run away from it…??..i know…every one reading this would have asked themselves the same question…why am I so afraid to fall in love…why am I so afraid to tell myself that its time that I need that SOMEONE SPECIAL in my life again…

For many of us the real question would be- “ are we afraid of the rejection..???”…and all my ladies out there, they don’t speak their heart out coz we think “I’m a girl…I’m not supposed to go first…its against the rules…guy proposes and I respond…that’s how it works..” but for how long are you prepared to play the blind fold…are you ready to see the love of your life go away in front of your eyes…are you ready to accept the fact that you could have been with the guy/girl of your dreams if only you had Believed and had taken that leap of faith…

I am not ready to take that leap of faith yet…coz I need to ask myself first that what am I looking for…and it took me quite a while to figure out what kinda guy I wanted…

Starting from the obvious, ofcourse I want someone who will love me, care for me…make me smile when I’m low and support me through all my hardships…that was clichéd…I know…
Now what I really want is someone who will respect me for what I am…someone who is prepared to accept me inspite of all my flaws…coz I am not someone easy to tame…I’m a taurean afterall….*winks*…

I don’t want to be his queen…but I want to be the only lady love in his life…I don’t want him to shower me with expensive gifts …but I would want him to atleast gimme a rose everyday so that I know I’m loved…I don’t want him to keep me happy always…but I want that he should never be the reason behind my tears….i am not expecting him to be perfect…but I want him to be a man and take responsibility for the mistakes he made…I don’t want him to do everything that I say, but I want him to atleast full fill the promises that he made…i don’t want him to compliment me every now and then but I want him to be proud of me…I don’t want him to say he is lucky to have me but I want to know that I mean the whole world to him and that he wouldn’t dare loose me…I don’t want him to buy me diamonds all the time…but I want him to take me to those romantic dates which I deserve…I don’t want him to give a beautiful speech about me in public, but I want him to take my stand when someone is trying to give me hard time…I don’t expect him to be polite to me all the time but he should atleast have the decency to not yell at me in public and wait for the right time to tell me my mistakes…I don’t want him to tell me I am hot or sexy, but I want him to let me know that I’m the woman he always dreamt of….i don’t want him to give me all his 24hrs…but I want him to have the decency to not abandon me for his personal pleasures when he knows I would be lonely and waiting for him…I don’t want him to not make mistakes, but I want to know that he is genuinely sorry when he makes one…and the most important thing, I would want him to treat my parents as his own…i want him to love them and respect them…for they gave their most important treasure, their daughter to him..!!!

Too much to ask..???...well that’s what I would want in my guy…:)…and when I find someone like this…I’ll be ready to take my leap of faith…and I wouldn’t hesitate to tell him that he is all that I always wanted.

So, to all my readers, what kinda guy/girl do you want..??? and are you ready to take your leap of faith…!!!

And when you find the love of your life…don’t forget to communicate your feelings…coz..

“IF YOU HESITATE-YOU REGRET”…!!!

NO MEANS NO...!!!!

So here i am......once again...!!!

After such a long time...something very despairing caught my attention and made me take out some time from my busy and hectic schedule....i cant even start to express how sad it makes me to see such cases happening every now and then around us...

Yes...i am talking about the DELHI RAPE case....it left a great impact on me....i questioned myself that what if something like that would have happened to me...what would i have done...and the answers were agitating...Rape is the only crime in which the victim becomes the abused...!!

We talk about politics, our corrupt government, lack of literacy in the country, modernization, etc etc....but they remain JUST TALKS....we are so depended on our government to take action but what will such a government answer who can keep a TERRORIST in jail for 4 years...??? what will such a government answer who beats d hell out of innocent youngsters who go on strikes just to get their voices heard and demand JUSTICE....who says women should not wear provocative dresses rather then encouraging men to treat them with respect....who says eating Chinese food is the reason behind the rape cases( after hearing this statement i lost all my patience )....

We are told not to wear provocative dresses....not to go out late nights, not to work in places with less female population ( coz the chances of getting raped increases), not to laugh out loud coz that will make you look bold and give a green signal to the lunatics creeping on you.....

But i ask...why US...?? why the victims are suggested what not to do instead of the desperadoes roaming out there in open....

I don't know if my sympathies would make the poor girl feel any better....only thing that could satisfy her raging pain would be to grant her the authority to take a decision as to what punishment she wants to give to these desperate animals who ruined her life....

soon after i posted on my Facebook wall that WE NEED REAL LAWS....people started sending me suggestions as to what can be done to stop such heinies crimes....and i wasn't surprised to hear what they had to say....

some said they should be hanged till death..
or we should bring in d SAUDI LAWS in our country- " u steal, we cut your hand, u rape we cut your prick, you lie we cut your tongue and so on.."...

I don't know if our democratic government is still ready to inforce such laws in our country...but i request...whatever they decide to do...atleast bring justice to the victims of such crimes.....they have gone through something which changed their life forever...some victims may come out of the trauma someday but some people will just breathe it out.....

" IF THERE IS A TIME WHEN YOUR WALLS COULD GUARD US....THEN LET THAT TIME BE NOW"..

NO i am not some revolutionary, NGO worker, spokes person of some group, or a social activist....i am just the "AAM JANTA" ......who wants to live in peace...who wants to reach home safely without having to fear about getting raped....who wants to achieve her dreams someday and make her family and friends proud....who wants this world to be a better place to live in....!!!

P.S- " DON'T TELL YOUR DAUGHTER NOT TO GO OUT, TELL YOUR SON TO BEHAVE PROPERLY COZ WE ARE NOT AN OBJECT FOR HIS ENTERTAINMENT".....!!!

LIFE….IT IS KIND OF BITTER –SWEET….!!!

Simply sipping my coffee by the window…looking at the various things happening out there, like the women bargaining with the sabziwaala & not ready to let go off her 5 Rupees, the beggar just sitting out in the hot sun in his own world expecting someone to show some mercy while people just passing by him…some staring with dirty looks…some showing genuine sympathy...the child crying for the toy he saw in the last shop he visited…kids shouting their guts out as soon as they heard the school bell....the people by the paan shop…smoking n chewing…some out of habit…some out of frustration….those cheesy couples walking hand in hand…those boyfriends walking behind their gals apologizing…(story of every guy….lol..)..those high society men n women walking out of their multimillion dollar homes…that middle class father passing by on his scooter hoping that he could too provide the same to his family some day….those young confident looking guys and girls knowing that they are so broke inside and still managing to put a fake smile on their faces …and all the  hustle n bustle of the city…put me to thinking….WHAT LIFE IS ACTUALLY..???...

Well that’s a very difficult question…isn’t it..??...people have been looking for an answer to this question since centuries…no wonder all the scientists and historians look psychos and lunatics…( forgot the various pics you saw in your science and history labs..???..)…anyways, if you are looking for a scientific answer…don’t read this article anymore…duh…I ain’t no SCIENCE GEEK… I’ll be sharing only what my perception is…( although my parents keep telling me- “beta abhi aapne duniya dekhi kaha he” )….so ignoring my parents for a while I’ll just assume that I have some amount of experience….

“LIFE” is a boundless concept…the more you try to figure it out…the more you get confused…I bet all my YOUNG guys n gals would agree…coz we are the most frequent hand raisers to this question….we always try to figure out why the hell life is behind kicking our ass off….as soon as we see the challenges and troubles in front of us we know “ Damn,we are screwed”….those hundreds of break-ups we see everyday and think…”man, life is a BITCH”….and we end up getting frustrated and ultimately exhaust ourselves…

Um sure….each one of us would have looked up in the sky and talked like a retard asking god “ WHY YOU NO LEAVE ME ALONE..???..lol…

But…what bums me out the most is why don’t we see the other way round…why do we always try to find faults; rather we should invest our time and energy in looking at the brighter side…there is much more to life then just a STRUGGLE….!!!

I believe life is KIND OF BITTER-SWEET…

I agree that it throws tantrums at us…but then it also gives us the those beautiful memories that we cherish….the freaky, crazy friends we make, the disturbed looking professors , those special/stupid strangers, the guy/girl who just makes us skip a heartbeat, those dumbass people who frustrates the hell out of us and still have a special place in our hearts, those peaceful moments when you just sit behind your friend and enjoy the warm breeze flowing through your hair while your friend tries to cut his way through the traffic and dodging the thullas/mamus on the signals, those pleasant family trips, the mother/father hood we experience when we carry our new born baby for the first time..etc etc…the list is infinite….

Aren’t they all worth cherishing….aren’t they a reason enough to enjoy life rather than crying over it….all those who are trying to be strong and fighting back their tears…I absolutely understand your situation….trust me…I have been there…but what I learnt is….becoming weak is not an option for us, rather  be bold and strong and have guts to face your problems…instead of the dark, try to move towards the light….follow a simple  mantra in your life “SMILE THROUGH ALL THE ADVERSITIES” and BANG…you will hit the treasure…you will never be sad again….try to find those small-small reasons that makes you happy, whenever you feel low, cry your heart out, but then remember, once you are done never look back…

Enjoy life till it lets you….don’t keep any regrets….do anything and everything you want to, before you die….even if its jumping off the cliff or diving deep into the sea…JUST DO IT….!!!

A beautiful line that inspires me and gives me the much needed push :–

“Aaj…..aaj ek haseen aur baant loon… Aaj ek dua aur maang loon….Aaj ek aansoo aur pee loon…. Aaj ek zindagi aur jee loon... Aaj ek sapna aur dekh loon…. Aaj….kyuki  kya pata,  KAL HO NAA HO…!”

LOVE @ FIRST SIGHT....!!!

This random question popped out in my mind a few days back…I updated my Facebook status regarding d same…. {LOVE @ FIRST SIGHT….what is it…???}… Many people shared their views regarding the same….some said it never works….some said it sucks….some said one should stay away from it because its fatal….but nobody could explain the sheer beauty of love @ first sight….

It can happen to anybody….n not necessarily with a person….but may be a place, poem, song, photograph, or any random stuff u want to include….I dint realize the beauty of this divine concept of “LOVE @ FIRST SIGHT” until it happened to me….ohhh…trust me…the feeling is blissful….I thought I was under some sort of trance…it took me quite a while to realize what was happening to me…I was suffering through the clichéd disease of “LOVERIA “…..

So now my next question was…”WHAT is the PROBABILITY of success or failure of the above syndrome…”.???... and to that my friend beautifully answered- “ well it depends on the number of EYES involved”…well I couldn’t resist but laugh…as he was right…the more the number of EYES the lesser is your chance to succeed in your quest to get your LOVE @ FIRST SIGHT….

So what is it that you can do…???..don’t worry friends (those who have suffered/suffering) I absolutely understand your situation… many of my girl /guy friends keep asking me, “YAAR MUJHE PYAAR HO GAYA, ME KYA KARU”…lol…honestly speaking I never had an answer to that HAUNTING question as I am no LOVE GURU….but as time passed and with lil experience that I have, now I am atleast able to give few suggestions….

First of all find out if your craziness is temporary or permanent…if temporary then there’s nothing you should do…it will take care of itself…but if permanent…then my friend you need help…if you are sure…that you can’t go a day without looking/talking to that person then I will say….TAKE THE LEAP….

Try to know that person…take interest in his/her activities…try to get to know him/her better…see if he /she is actually what you wanted in your life…coz we all know…”mirages” are a part of life n one is bound to get caught in its illusion if not alert….slowly increase the content of your conversation…if he/she is equally interested, they too will respond with the same amplitude…and if they don’t…you know its time for you to “BACK OFF”….

Now…if the amplitude too is the same then it’s time to find out if both the parties are looking forward to the “SAME DEAL”….coz I bet you guys, you never want to fall into “ONE SIDED” crap…coz it ultimately hurts…and hurts real bad…if there is no common interest then u know it…take a U-TURN….but if YES then slowly start to convey your feelings…coz if you don’t…then you’ll alwaz have the REGRET that you DINT TRY….so why to take that burden…instead why not start acting strong and bold and just let your feelings flow…and after sometime…you will reach your awaited paradise….:)

Ya…I would not deny that LOVE @ FIRST SIGHT is a very tricky concept….but that’s the fun part right..???...the uneasiness, the sleeplessness, those mysterious smiles on your face, that commitment with which you put all your efforts to make that person yours, everything…isn’t it all ..”JUST WORTH IT..”.

After all somebody beautifully quoted-  "…itni shiddat se maine tumhe paane ki koshish ki hai ki har zarre ne mujhe tumse milane ki koshish ki hai....kehte hai agar kisi cheez ko sachche dil se chaaho toh poori kaynath tumhein usse milane ki koshish mein lag jaati hai…”

Or in words of Poulo Coelho – “…When you really want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it…”…!!!

A MOMENT OF DISGUISE

A moment of disguise...i feel lost...i feel found...

its a fight for d light...in the dark battle ground...

hold on to me...there came a sound...

what goes by....is bound to come around...

i ran through d desserts...and through d wild...

struggled hard but cudnt find... that lost-hidden child....

these waters run deep...be prepared to drown...

you cant be angry...n you cant even frown....

um loosing my patience...um loosing my calm...

these scars cant be healed ..not even with a conjuring balm....

show me the reality...tell me the truth...

is it a disguise...or the real face of your youth....

i am tired....i am broke...

i feel um loosing...and it wont be long before i choke...

it looks so surreal...or is it just a dream...

my thoughts keep flowing...like an unruly stream...

god its a wrath...gimme some peace...

world is shaking...and its on a verge to cease...

evrything looks abrupt...be it flora or fauna...

ohh...its time for accord...show me nirvana...

Kuch Kami Hain...!!!

Sab kuch wahi hain…par kuch kami hain…

Naadaan hain ye…jo maanta nahi hain…

Pucha mene…ye zidd kesi kar raha hain…

Kaha maine Ye mumkin nahi hain…

Khushi or gum sab ka hissa hain…

To tera ye kesa bachpanaa hain…

Maan bhi jaa….zara sambhal bhi jaa…

Chahe to aaj khul ke ro bhi lay……..

Magar ye zidd chhod de….

Chahe to Yaado me basa ley use…

Magar yaad rakh fir piche mat dekhna…

.

Raaste badal chuke he….manzil ab bhi wahi hain…

Na main galat hu…naa wo galat.….

Galat  thi ummeed….

Khaab maine bhi pale the…..

Par khel to kismat khel gai…

Aaj jab wo panne palte…

To yaad aaya….

Sab kuch wahi hain….par kuch kami hain….

Aaj main hu….to wo nahi hain….

ANKAHI BAATEIN...!!!

Aaj ek dard uth raha he seene me...
jitna sochti hu...utni oolajhti jaa rahi hu.....
aaj kyu ye aankhein nam he..
aaj kyu khaamosh hu main...
aaj sach aur juth ek sa ho gaya he...


in sitaaron me aaj chamak kyu kam lag rahi he...
aaj chaand bhi ruthaa hua sa he...
andar jo aag hua karti thi...
wo aaj sirf dhuaan kyu he..?..


aaj naa koi raasta he...naa koi manzil he...
to fir ye kesi becheni he...
aaj na jeet ki aas he...naa haarne ka darr...
to fir mann me ye kesi ladaai he...?..


ek baar tumne pucha tak nahi...
ye jawaab kyu tumne maanga nahi...
sawaalo ka dariyaa aaj umad raha he...
lehrein aaj kyu karwate badal rahi he...?..


ek junoon se pyaar kiya karti thi...
aaj wo pyaar ek kahaani kyu ban gaya he..?..
panne to saamne khule pade he...
to aaj ye shabd kyu samaj nahi paa rahi hu..?..


dil me ek dard sa he...
aaj ek ghutan mehsus ho rahi he...
kho gayi hu khai shaayad....
yaa fir khud se bhaag rahi hu...?..


aaj jab ye ankahi baatein sochti hu...
to lagta he tufaan aane wala he...
ab jab sheeshe me dekhti hu...
to khud ko pehchaan nahi paati hu...


mushkil he lafzon me keh paana....
ye jataa paana logo ko...
ye jo muskaan liye chal rahi hu chehre pe....
wo to bas ek mukhota he...


kyu aaj bhi seene me chupaaye chal rahi hu...
wo kuch ankahi baatein...!!!

THE UNSPOKEN LOVE....!!!!

The room was silent, when i walked in...

it was my first day...so i dint dared to grin...

i saw you for the first time...my mind went numb...

people were interacting with you...when i sat silent like a dumb...

i liked you the day i saw you....but knew there were no hopes...

i couldn't help missing you...and i got caught in the vicious ropes...

the day passed by..and the nights kept changing...

i remained silent...and my love kept aborning...

my heart beats fast...and my cheeks are all red..

i know i will get hurt...and that is exactly what i dread...

so i chose not to tell you...and keep my feelings within...

i watched you come and go...and now i don't know how long has it been...

this is the story of my unspoken love...which i could never tell...

love inside me never died...and it is bound to dwell...

the day news came..he went far and away..

i broke into pieces...and my heart cried out whole day... 

i wish i had a chance...so i could have told you...

that i fell in love... unknowingly out of the blue...

but i guess this was destined...to remain unspoken...

the story about this love...had a fate to stay broken...!!!!

WRITTEN BY: Karishma Ankleshwaria 

forever...till the end...!!!!

Wonderful feeling it is...to just hold your hands...
walk thousands of miles...and explore the foreign lands...
the beautiful mornings with you....and those peaceful nights...
i remember talking late night...and even d smallest fights...


you know what i want...n u know what i need...
whatever i asked...u silently agreed....
i am a princess to u...and i am your queen...
oh baby um addicted...you are my caffeine...


u made me realize...how it felt to be special
to be real...and just not be someone artificial...
soft is your touch....pure is your love
memories of u...make me fly like a dove...


i can die in peace...if you are with me...
i can bear the worst pain...n drown in the deepest sea...
just walk and...hold my hand till the end...
listen to the song...of romantic band...


oh baby....just close your eyes...
live the dreams...and forget the lies...
lets paint our love on the canvas...lets make a dream castle...
a peaceful country....where there would be no hassle...


just don't care about the world for once...run freely through the fields.
enjoy this moment for now...and see what peace it yields...
you the most awaited event of my life...and the best chapter of my book...
i love your smile and the way you care...there is some charm and charisma in your look...


the story has just begun...there is so much yet to get...
it has always been about you...since the day JAB WE MET...

WRITTEN BY: Karishma Ankleshwaria

SURVIVE...!!!!

I thought of telling you this...but then...i stopped...i choked...the memories of the scene came rushing in my head...everything looked so surreal...did it actually happen or was i just dreaming....oh no...i think its time for a reality check now...sounds were floating back in the background....i heard you saying something about being calm...no..i wasn't listening....my senses were all numb...how was i supposed to react to that...after all i had seen a DEATH today... just in front of my eyes...didn't you feel the pain and agony... didn't you hear the loud grievous cries....didn't you see that suffering voice asking for help...you were with me...yes you were standing just beside me...did you forgot so easily that we were together when the incident took place....we were standing like silent dead mannequins..we din't make any attempt to move...i wished we had taken a step forward...may be we could have saved...are we her MURDERERS..????..no..it was not supposed to be like that...then why did it happen...why..????


IF ONLY.........I......me.......you.......we.......they.......and all.......would have tried...to save this planet from dying then mother earth would not have ceased to exist...our ignorance has killed her..yes we are the murderers...we ourselves left her in the hands of cruel pollution, corruption, theft, murder, rape, kidnapping, terrorism, global warming, poverty, unemployment, hunger, deforestation, dirty politics, and the list will go on...it is not as small as you had imagined it to be my friend....its so long that it can actually break all records...after leaving our mother earth to fight with all these enemies..how can we even imagine that she was going to survive.....NO ONE COULD AND NOR DID SHE....


I don't blame her...i point my finger at myself and you....why did we always depended on somebody else to do it...why didn't we take a little pain and help her fight...we could have saved her..IF ONLY we would have tried....


THIS will happen my dear friends...if we don't change our attitude...if we don't change our lifestyles...It only takes a little effort to help...we are living in an era of millions of young and mature people...why not every individual just take a single step...and together we can take millions of steps which will help us to finish our quest at a faster pace...and i promise it would be faster than one can imagine....


Just start with little things..and before you know...you will be contributing generous deeds..
COME HERE....LETS STAND TOGETHER and make a promise to be more responsible and active regarding our actions....who knows...WE might just be able to SURVIVE....!!!!


Written By: Karishma Ankleshwaria 

HAPPY ENDING...!!!!

Love is an emotion...from which you cant run away...
you had to come back....at the end of the day....
i knew you love me...from the bottom of your heart....
not only in present....but since the day it all start...


The day was full of drama..and all emotions uncensored...
not only us..but friends too got captured...
tears fell down...by the road side lane...
how everything got apart..no one could explain...


today we realized..how friends are important...
they stood by us...and proved they are brilliant...
never ignore true friends...is what i have learned...
they are the light in darkness..and they are the ones concerned....


the day ended with a good note...with faces full of smiles...
we all promised to stay together...and stay connected for millions of miles...




(poem is dedicated to such exclusive friends i have in my life...and to everyone..value your friends..believe me..they will value you million times more in return..:):)


{ P.S - mrinu n shaan..u are the best }


WRITTEN BY: Karishma Ankleshwaria

MY HEART WILL WAIT...no matter you go....!!!!

O BABY i miss you....how can i deny....
you are the one i loved...and i can rely...
baby um not wrong...why don't you understand....
you are the only one....to whom i gave my hand.....


you said you don't need me...o baby please say its a lie....
my life is all about you....separation is killing me n making me die....
listen to this sound...in the silence of my heart...
it is crying for you...please don't break it apart....


it feels like years..that we have not talked....
since the last time i called you...you looked away and walked....
wait for a moment...and try to analyse....
whatever you are thinking...is wrong you will realize....


very first day i met you..i knew you were the one...
how can u just say...its over and we are done...
you were silent the whole day...cant you see...
even you are getting hurt....along with me....


i wasn't even prepared...when you broke my heart....
it was the same day....when we promised to never depart....
if you need a break...i will give you time...
killing our relation..is no less then a crime...


there were also events...when you were wrong...
you are just blaming me for...a mistake where i don't belong....
responsibility is a part..when you are in a relation...
you cant handle that...you said its creating frustration....


my heart still cant except...that everything is over...
my soul thinks you will come back...and that he is an achiever...
how do i console...the tears of my heart.....
which will always wait for you....even if we get apart...




WRITTEN BY: Karishma Ankleshwaria

enjoy d song and d video guys...Forever- J-Lie ft LaRon (lyrics)...!!!!

ds..

LOST FAITH IN LOVE...( part-II )

I am waiting for my death....but its taking rest....

enjoying the pain that i suffer...and taking my patience test...

the pain is really hard....how do i explain....

o please come back ma love....don't let our love suffer this strain....

WHY do you doubt me...when you know how much i care....

have struggled for this relationship...and it was nothing i do swear....

i called my friend cute...and that bothered you....

what about the day you went...for dinner with the girl i hate you knew....

two days of friendship with those unknown pals....

you went with your best friend for lunch with those girls....

you never told me..about all those brunch...

i heard it from somewhere...and it felt like a punch....

i don't care  that you went and what you did....

the reason i felt bad...is because you hid...

my friend from the school...was known longer than those girls....

and still you blame me...for cheating and lying curls...

break up is not an answer...to all the problems...

is what you taught me...when i acted like those dumbs.....

now you want me...to go far and away....

caught in your own words..like a struggling prey...

o stop all these fightings...is what i beg....

i miss those walks in rain....with no shoes in the leg....

my morning was your smile...and night was your dreams....

how can you forget...those moments and ice creams....

yes we are perfect...together o my dear....

separation has made you dull...and filled me with fear...

lying to ourselves...is the last thing expected....

not only us...but our friends are also affected....

i know you are hurt...and feeling depressed...

but all you think is an illusion...n creating all this unrest....

open your heart...and listen what it says...

isn't it missing...all those beautiful days...

O please come back my love....and leave the sad breath...

i beg please don't do this..and SAVE OUR LOVE from the DEATH.....

WRITTEN BY: Karishma Ankleshwaria 

LOST FAITH IN LOVE...(part- I)..!!!

O my love.....i came here for you...

its been three years...still you think um looking for something new....

i loved you since the very first day.....

and never asked you to love back or repay....

you said come here and i will think....

for your love i drank this unknown drink...

i fought with the world...to come where you are....

so that i could meet you....and break your minds confused bar....

when i came...i was all alone in the city.....

and i wiped my own tears through all the adversity...

you said wait for my answer till i decide....

and in the alien city i weeped and i cried....

you took your own time...to say that i love you....

rays of sunshine fell.....on my tears like dew....

happiness followed me....on every step of mine..

my heart was full of feelings...so pure and divine....

two years went by...and i never made a friend.....

because you were my life...and you were my end.....

you said i am dependent...and you cant take that burden....

but the truth was i am scared....but kept all my feelings hidden....

make good friends is what you asked....

memories were bad...but i agreed to forget the past....

just for you my love..i tried till the end...

but the result was so bad...and i couldn't make a friend....

what will you do....if i go away....

is what you said...while walking through the hallway....

i never ever thought...about getting apart....

even a thought like that...struck a pain in my heart....

you took a promise from me....and started the whole show....

that i will make at least one friend....before the day you go....

now i thought that....you were so right....

and searched for a friend....with a hopeful light.....

day came when i met....a person i can befriend.....

he was the one....who got lost in the past but found before the end....

i was happy  that i kept...my promise of making a friend....

i never saw the trouble...coming on the other hand...

you started feeling insecure...and doubted my love....

but he was just a close friend....from my high schools clove....

we talked and we pampered...but it was all in pure sense....

how can you think...that it was cheesy and immense....

how do i prove...my love for you.....

should i die or just tell me...what should i do....

i cant bear the pain of getting separated.....

and he is just a friend and our feelings are not adulterated....

you said you cant trust me...and want me to go away....

break up numbed my feelings....and now death is what i PRAY.....

 WRITTEN BY: Karishma Ankleshwaria